Plastic Butterfly

Plastic butterfly in the snow.
Lifeless.
Wings of green and of white.
Strange sidewalk sight.
Lonely.
Plastic butterfly in the snow.

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The Kite Runner

I’m not apt to blogging about and “reviewing” every movie I see, pretending to be some sort of “independant movie reviewer” (cause frankly… nobody knows anything unless they know the taste of each individual). But in this case I feel like I need to write something about the film “The Kite Runner”.
I won’t do this often, but when a film touches me like this one did, I might stray and tell people about it… and yes, even recommend it. (but don’t stay on the edge of your seat waiting for a 5 star rating system… cause you’ll be there for quite a while).

So last night my roomate and I went to see The Kite Runner at the Rainbow Cinema (2$ for students! yay). I heard it was based on this best selling novel, and it seemed like a very good story. Basically it’s a story about two little boys, Amir and Hassan who were the bestest of friends. One of the boys ends up betraying the other and he is called to redeem himself many years later. I won’t say much more about the story… just check imdb for a synopsis or someting… and i’m nervous to reveal something I’m not supposed to. About 3/4 of the movie, but probably alot more is subtitles (I think the langauge spoken is some form of Persian), and it takes place mainly in Afghanistan.
Maybe it’s the anthropologist inside me here, or maybe it’s just the fact that i’m a human being with intelligence, but the movie was extremely enlightening. You learn much more about Afghani culture and the hardships they have faced in the past decades (and even today).
It’s a film that I would really like my parents to watch, simply because I’m afraid they (along with countless others) are getting the wrong impression about their culture.

The film was very beautiful and sweet…and I think I found myself a new actor to obsess over. Khalid Abdalla. He was great in the movie, and my weakness for men of his nationality made him quite entruiging.

So anyways, enough with this unorganized post. I recommend this film to everyone. It’s heartbreaking, inspiring, the whole package. Loved it. Will buy the DVD. Want to read the novel.

Just thought I’d give praise where praise is due.

Master Cleanse: Day 6 (had enough)

Well, it’s day six, and my stomach is still being a bit upset, I decided to take some orange juice, call it quits, and congratulate myself on a full 5 days of fasting (from solids). I kinda wanted to continue, but just the smell of the lemonade made me feel queezy. So, quit now and get some nutrients, or continue and drink nothing but tea and water…and get weaker and weaker.  LOL, and yesterday my roomate told me I looked like Victor Van Dort from Tim Burton’s Corpse Bride. pale with black circles around my eyes.

…and I agreed.

I had a little bit of cooked lentils today…tasted like candy. Oh, and just to document, when I drank orange juice, it burned my mouth, especially my saliva glands which tensed up and said “woah woah!!”. Quite the shock to my mouth.

I went to buy some groceries today, to get started with the new eating habits. The walk was horrible… it’s so wet out there. I had water crawl up half of my jeans, and as usual, I bought to much that I could carry. Love the arm work out but omfg. Thankfully I was going to visit Vey and Jason right away (which is the half way mark to my place) so I left some groceries there for the night to ease the rest of my walk.

I also weighed myself, and to my complete surprise, I effin lost 15 POUNDS!  In 5 days!  The average weight lose is 20pounds in 10days…. but to loose 15 in 5?  wth. It’s even visually noticeable, I can see my precious rib cage again when I stretch. I’m really curious to see how many pounds I will gain back. I’m hoping at least a few were actual pounds lost rather then just water wieght and fecal matter. (take that Beyonce!… whom btw, I recently learned, ate vegetables during her Master Cleanse)

So if I feel up to it, my work out regime will start tommorow, and I’m very excited to try all the organic food I bought. Which btw, seemed very cheap!  I bought a bag of organic oatmeal for less then a SMALLER bag of no name brand oatmeal… wierd! 

So my master cleanse verdict is. I don’t regret it, i’ve accomplished my main goal. I’d recommend it only if people listen to their own body and know when to call it quits. The lemonade kills determination. If it tasted good, it would be easier. Try it, but don’t overdue it.

*pats self on back*

 

Master Cleanse: Day 5

Horrible.  Woke up today feeling quite sick. I have had the urge to vomit all day, and even now. Just the thought of the lemonade today makes me feel worse. I’m trying to get down as much water and lemon juice as I can, cause it’s the only thing I think will stay down. (and I want SOME nutrients in my body) I could try to drink some lemonade mix, but it will most likely come right back up. I’m weak, very weak today…. just walking around the apartment is a task in its own. If i’m very sick again tommorow I will be calling it quits, and begin to drink some orange juice. I figured that my main goal is accomplished, to gain control of my eating habits. I was was able to not eat solid foods for an entire 5 days, I can surely monitor my foods efficiently… and honnestly I’m ready to start working out. I got a random magazine in my mailbox yesterday for runners. (QUITE random) and I read alot of articles in it. I found an execellent core strength training regime and alot of tips on healthy eating. I’m ready to get started. I really want to finish my 10 days though, as a personal goal, but if i’m sick again tommorow i’m not puting my body through any more stress. I know my body, and I know my limits. But I’ll still wait until tommorow before I make my final decision.  Because ultimately this might be one of those days you just have to get passed, and who knows, I might wake up tommorow morning feeling amazing… but right now it doesn’t seem likely.

So i’ve been looking into raw food diets. Which basically entail eating my fruits and vegetables raw rather then cooking them which destroys beneficial enzymes. I probably won’t have an exclusively raw food diet, but I will try to eat as many raw fruits and vegetables as I can.

Oddly enough today, all I can think about is tofu….and how much I miss it. So as soon as i’m done readjusting my digestive system, I’m so eating tofu first chance I can get…. and I really miss cereal too. LOL  Which I will be able to eat because i eat it with soy milk… so it won’t be any dairy that I’m not supposed to eat for two weeks after the diet.

So right now I want to quit, but I’m waiting until tommorow to see how I feel.  …and hey, 5 days of fasting… not too shabby!

Master Cleanse: Day 4

So today was my big temptation test, and it went SUPER awesome! Sat ALL day at the bake sale, from 9:30am until we left. The temptation wasn’t all that bad! … except for Lyndsay’s buttertarts. Omfg, they are the most amazing butter tarts ever, I tried some this summer when we worked at Sitel. So seeing them on that table was definetly a bit frustrating. But I resisted, but was tempted to buy one, freeze it, and eat it once i’m done this diet. (but Lynds said she’s make me some) Even though the plan it to eat very healthy once i’m off this diet, you gotta have sweets once in a while, or else you’ll end up pigging out of it eventually. Bake sale went super well, we made about 70$…. ever more closer to raising money for a good hall. Let’s see, we had: muffins, chocolate chip cookies, rice crispie squares, cupcakes covered with coconut and chocolate chips, and the ever famous buttertarts. Loved to support from the profs (wow can some of them pack down alot of baked goods!) The movie night that we also had tonight didn’t go all too well, we had a few show up, but not as many as last time.
But more excitingly, the colon cleansing has officially begun!!! At 5:30pm..ish, I had an exciting BM! (ahahah)  … god i’m weird.  But hey, if you were doing a colon detox and nothing seemed to be “coming out”, you’d be pretty excited when it finally happened too!
Had alot of energy today, even ran from Thorneloe to the classroom building, I effin’ love the energy this diet has given me. (although the energy went away once I sat at that table for hours)  I do wish I could do my push-up training right now though, cause i’m sure it would go great. But since I have no protein coming in, it’s would be futile to try and build muscle (and probably not be too healthy)
So overall today was good. Came back home, drank my tea, watched my taped episode of Survivor (so good) and saved my taped episode of Lost for tommorow.
Yay for day 4!

Master Cleanse: Day 3

So today was my third day on the Master Cleanse detoxification diet….and it was a great day. Had one random BM, but nothing crazy… but I think the colon detoxification is going to start really soon. Still despising the lemonade, didn’t finish my whole batch for today, but that’s alright. No headaches like yesterday, not really tired. Had ALOT of energy today actually.  Hunger was not a big deal at all…barely ever felt hungry…. that is until I baked.  Made all my muffins for tommorow’s bake sale (all 4 dozen of them) ’twas fun but frustrating a little… especially when you get batter on your finger, usually you’ll just lick it off or whatever, but i was like, NO, no you can’t…. Made blueberry and double chocolate muffins…  they look awesome.
So tommorow’s the bake sale, have to be there by 9:30am. I’ll have to remember to bring a good supply of lemonade with me for i’ll be there all day long. I’m just hoping the 2 cups of laxative tea I drank tonight will have there effect really early, or else imma be late, which cannot happen since I’m the one with the keys to the desk, which contains the lock box. (I really did choose a good week to start this program…) oh well!

So everything is going great, my sense of smell seemed to have enhanced. Noticed when I was washing my face with a cleanser. Smelled a bit stronger then usual.

Ready for day 4! (can’t believe I didn’t eat a thing in 3 whole days…. crazy)

Master Cleanse: Day 2

So this is going to be a very short blog…  for the end of day 2 is not so good.  I have a huge headache (killing me as i type) and I’m very tired.  It hit me around 5pm or so. The day however was very good, had a club meeting and talked about our bake sale and other upcoming events, then went to a health food store to check out stuff (vey decided to do a cleanse herself… but a less intense one that allows her to eat… she found a pretty cool product at the health food store which comes in pill format). Then went to the grocery store to buy muffin mix for my bake sale (i’m making muffins…and yes, i’m lazy). So that temptation went well, not too hungry today. (although i still have to bake tommorow and then sit with all those baked goods, all day, on thursday..ugh)
Let’s se…. umm, last night had trouble sleeping, I kept thinking about food, LOL.  Woke up this morning and my skin felt so freggin soft, it was wierd. Still is soft.  …especially my booty… ahha.  I don’t know why, but hey, i’ll take it (don’t know if it’s cause of the cleanse or not.)

So I’m gonna go watch the biggest loser, drink my laxative tea, take a shower and i’m straight to bed.
Please leave soon headache!

(sorry about any typos and crappy writting… i’m too tired and in pain to care)

Master Cleanse: Day 1

Well today went quite well. No crazy BMs though…not yet anyways… but apparently it can take some people 2 - 3 days before they get a good flush. I’ve established 100% that I hate this lemonade. If it wasn’t for the cayenne pepper it would be okay, but with it…. uhuh. I love spicy…but NOT in my lemonade.  Apparently you can cut back a little bit on the cayenne, but you loose some health benefits…so i’m gonna stick with the full amount.
Today was all about peeing.
I can’t even remember the times I went for a piss. I guess I’ll have to get used to it, since all i’ll be doing for the next 10 days will be drinking.
Hunger was not so much a huge deal today, stomach growled a little here and there, but overall it wasn’t that bad. The trip to the grocery store to pick up sea salt, extra lemons and maple syrup was a little tough though…especially seeing all the fresh bread… i want.
Just chugged another huge batch of salt water… thank god I bought that sea salt.  It’s SO MUCH easier to take. Still hard enough, but the taste isn’t as strong. GO NON-IODIZED!

Can’t wait to see what tommorow has in store… now time to go make some more lemonade *cringes*

Pre-Master Cleanse Day

So here’s my first entry for my 10 day Master Cleanse journey.  The Master Cleanse diet is a diet which consists of drinking a special lemonade concoction made with freshly squeezed lemon juice, organic maple syrup, water and cayenne pepper, and using natural salt water laxative in the morning (with ample time to spare before you go out) and drinking a laxative tea at night. It is said to detoxify your body and more notably, cleanse your colon from a nasty paste that forms inside it, preventing you from absorbing nutrients as efficiently as possible. It can also help you take control of your eating habits, which is specifically why I am doing it. Weight loss is also frequent, up to 2 pounds/day (so about 20 pounds during the entire 10 days)… but most of which is not permanent weight loss. (so don’t think you can loose a quick 20 pounds and keep it off)
So developing new eating habits is my goal. I need to start eating breakfast and many small meals throughout my day (both of which boost metabolism) … starving yourself does nothing but put your body into a fasting mode, and consequently will slow down your goal to loose weight and get healthy. 
My personal belief is that a large part of this diet (and future goals) are all a matter of will power….and doing a cleanse will put me on the road to good health by providing me with a cleansed body and a stronger sense of will-power.
So to help my journey, i’ll be writing this blog in order to motivate myself to keep it up.

Now, many negative things have been said in regards to this diet… I have read some of it. (however, many sites bashing it were promoting other colon cleansing products, which involves BUYING their stuff.) The Master Cleanse doesn’t seem to be trying to sell anything (unless you count the book on the cleanse, which contains information you can easily get online for free)… or unless they have numerous stocks in the lemon market. Which I doubt. lol
Basically, it’s 10 days… it’s not gonna kill me. I’ve read the pros, i’ve read the cons… and i’m ok to deal with it all.

I spent a good hour or so today jucing lemons. Thankfully I own a juicer, so not only was I able to juice them with less effort but I got as much juice for my money as possible.  I made myself a big batch for the day tommorow, filled up a nalgene bottle… and i’m all set to begin.
The “lemonade” is not all that bad…although the cayenne pepper gives quite the kick.

Tonight I drank my first salt water mix to flush my system… i’m supposed to do this tommorow morning but I’ll still be up for quite some time and my day is too busy tommorow to wait around for the nasty to occur (which I would prefer to be at home for.) And btw, for futur posts, I will refer to a bowel movement as simply BM.
…the salt water mixture was…oh my disgusting.  I mixed it all up in my vase and just drank…and drank….and drank…  fuck that was alot. It was pretty hard to get down. Thank god I can chug.
(only gagged a FEW times)

See y’all tommorow!

An honest’s days work.

Well today got off to a great start, a very early one mind you… I had to be at school for 10am to meet my professor. (and those who know me understand why 10am is early). Got all set up in an office and did my research… for 5 HOURS straight. Now I won’t bore you with the details, but it involved searching for articles in an enormous database while fishing through all the german, italian and latin texts. Took a while to get used to the program, but I left there with a great start to my independant study.
Went back home to chill a bit and eat dinner, then off I went to help a friend move. Freggin nice ass apartment he got let me tell you, fireplace and all. So I got me a nice workout for the day… arms are killing me. (which will help my goal of doing 20 consecutive push-ups in a row, without thinking i’m going to die… did it the other day, but o…m…f…g…)

Very good day, especially for my usual lazy fridays.
Still no job luck yet though, and getting a little worried about not getting a new roomie before the current one leaves for Moncton *
(I did just find out that we have a Coke bottling plant in Sudbury…WHO KNEW!)

Stay tuned for Monday’s blog when I start my 10 day journey of lemon, cayenne pepper, maple syrup and water. This is gonna get crazy.